You know what, I know I’m going to feel like this one day. Near future, now, distant future…. whatever. I can’t stop it from happening.
I now know that there has been something of my past that has been holding me back but I’m trying to let go. But till I get there, I know it’s going to be a winding journey of being attacked and sometimes going through extreme lows.
All I just want to say is sorry. Sorry that you were involved. Sorry if I’ve hurt you. Sorry for all the times I’ve been distant. Sorry for all those times you’ve spent wondering where I was and what is it I wanted. Sorry for the confusion, hurt, everything. There’s so much to say and I wish I could tell you but somehow I can’t seem to. Just do know I’m truly sorry.